My Trim Healthy Mama Journey

During Christmas break my acid reflux rared it's ugly head. Over days it grew from just burning in my throat to pain in my stomach. It finally got so bad that I was basically in the fetal position. I finally went into see my Dr. and I was really unsure of what to tell her of my symptoms other than pain, burning, and I just couldn't eat anything. She determined that my esophagus was inflamed. She said my body was prone to inflammation due to my Hashimotos and that I really should be off sugar, dairy, and starches. So basically that left me with grass and water to eat.

I knew giving up sugar would be hard and for me starches would be even harder. But give up cheese and butter?! Unimaginable!

I had gotten the original Trim Healthy Mama book years ago when it first came out and last year purchased the new plan book and cookbook. While I stumbled around for about a week trying to figure out what I could eat that wouldn't cause me pain after I ate it, I stumbled on my books again.

The first time I tried the plan years ago, for some reason I just couldn't wrap my mind around it, but this time it just clicked. Probably because of the awesome support from the THM Facebook page. I dove in.

I've made some mistakes as this is just the beginning of my journey, but so far I've lost 16lbs, 5 inches, and a clothing size since the first week in January. As someone who struggles with Hashimotos and PCOS I NEVER thought I would be able to loose weight much less enjoy my foods while I did!

Trim Healthy Mama has jump started my journey to whole body healing. I'm now looking at my weightloss journey as a marathon instead of a sprint to loose it all quickly. I'm taking the time to nuritious my body with healthy foods, balance my blood sugars, and begin gentle movement exercises. It feels freeing and refreshing. I've had so many people ask me what I'm doing to loose weight so April 1st I'm leading a group study through the book and we will get on plan one meal at a time.

Picture on the left Jan. 17th. Picture on the right Feb. 17th

I am in no way affiliated with Trim Healthy Mama, but I will sing their praises from the roof tops. If you want to learn more check out their website. I'll be posting my journey on Instagram and I hope you will follow along!

Oh and I still enjoy cheese and butter. I make better starch choices, but I am sugar free!


The Season of Focus

At New Year's it has become a common theme to pick a word for the year instead of a resolution. I've never really done this as I don't tend to do resolutions and such, but about this time last year I went with my church to a retreat and they spoke about having a word of the year for their church and asked us to pray that God would show us each  individually a word. Well I felt the word Focus being pressed onto my heart.

As 2017 rolled around I felt like this word was still true of where I was. I think its my season I am in. There are so many things I'm struggling with and I just feel Focus fits where I am.

I want to Focus in 4 areas of my life:

1.) Spiritually

I want to point my focus toward God. I want to focus on spending time in Scripture and prayer and deepen my relationship with Christ. I want to focus on surrendering to His will. I want to focus on loving God and loving people. I want to focus on mercy and justice.

2.) Physically

I want to focus on renewing my health. I want to focus on foods that nutritious my body. I want to focus on movement that not only strengths but heals. I want to focus on giving myself grace when it comes to food.

3.) Family

I want to focus on loving my family. I want to focus on extending grace. I want to focus on unity. I want to focus on fun, faith, and love.

4.) Identity

I want to focus my identity in the right place. I want to see myself through Christ's grace. I want to focus on the fact that He made me just the way I am with my own gifts and talents. I want to focus on being unique and resting on His grace, love, and truth.

Do you have a word for the year of for the season? Share it with me! I'll be posting more on Instagram about my journey and progress! Join in on the fun!


Finding Freedom

I've missed blogging. I think about it often, and am constantly thinking of posts etc. at the most random times. Part of me thinks maybe blogging isn't for me since I can't seem to keep up with it and I don't like doing all of the "should do's" in blogging. But there is something in me that just can't let it go. Writing professionally has always been a huge dream of mine, so I'm just going to pick blogging back up on my terms. Do it when I can, and let go of expectations.

I am now working full time. I love it but I still haven't settled into a groove of keeping up with everything. Maybe I will, maybe I won't.

When I last posted I had just had my hysterectomy and I had become so frustrated with trying to live healthier. I was just so tired of thinking about food all the time and feeling guilty about everything that went into my mouth. Then the guilt would lead into binge eating junk food. My weight spiraled up and my determination went down. I still wanted to live a healthy lifestyle but I was so worn out and so bogged down with information.

I finally hit my point where I said enough with being unhealthy and feeling like crap all the time, but at the same time enough with trying to trapped by a natural lifestyle. I want grace and freedom. I want to live my life.

And that's where this new blog journey begins. I'm on a path of finding freedom. Not just from food, but finding my freedom in Christ and seeing myself for exactly who I was created to be. Nothing more, nothing less.


Lets Just Be Us

So this whole blog thing has been a bit of up and down for me. Do I write or not? Do I pick a niche or not? Do I blog for profit or fun? Well ladies and gentlemen let me let you in on a little secret.

I'm slightly crazy.

I never know what I want. I the most wishy-washy person you will ever meet.

What does that mean for this blog? Well I've decided to take the blogging rules and throw them out the window. I'm just going to write what I want when I want and how I want. You probably won't come here and find a bunch of inspirational and educational posts.

 I'm not going to post much about natural living or improving your health (expect when I talk about my own health struggles. In honesty lately I've been a bit discouraged with natural living and health research. Read 53 posts about a super food only to read 63 posts the next week about how "toxic" said food is. I'd rather eat Flaming Hot Cheetos and wash them down with a Coke on occasion and not worry over every bite I take (or don't take). Sure I'll probably die at 39 but at least I'll be happy.

What you will see more of is just me being me. I'm weird and quirky and as mentioned above a little crazy. I'm finding I'd rather be my kind of crazy from just dancing to the beat of my own drum then feeling crazy from trying to be something I'm not.

So this is me. I'll be me and you be you. Let's celebrating being just the very unique individuals the good Lord made us to be!


Living Life

Since my hysterectomy I have quite a lot on my mind. I've been thinking about the close of a season and entering into a new one. I feel like writing is a piece of me but I have decided to take a long break from blogging. Instead I'm going to spend my time journaling and honing in on writing skills (because lets face it I need a lot of work). I also feel the need to quit chasing dreams and just enjoy life. Not that I'm giving up on my dreams, but I'm so tired of focusing on them and the future that I'm not taking the time to enjoy here and now.

I'm wanting the next year of my life to focus on who I am as a person, not just as a mom and wife, but also enjoy precious moments with my family. I just want to live my life.

I'm removing all the social media apps from my phone and will just be checking them occasionally on my computer.

So here's to 2016! I resolve to draw into God and love on my family and myself (something I have a very hard time doing). I want to eventually redesign and rebrand my blog, but for now I'm resolving to just live my life and take joy in the journey that the Lord has set before me.


Where Have I Been?

Can you hear the crickets chirping? I know I can! The blog has been very very quiet with exception to my fab contributors (thanks ya'll for posting and not letting my little ol blog shrivel up and die)! I know I posted an update recently but I feel like so much has changed since then and life has been well just nutty.

Yes, I'm still subbing quite a bit in hopes to use my pay check to pay for Christmas, but the main thing that's been going on has been some not so fun health stuff. In my last update I mentioned that my well woman visit didn't go as planned. I had to go back and have an ultrasound done. The ultrasound showed that my uterus is slightly larger than normal. That plus my symptoms my doctor believes I have adenomyosis. What is that and why am I sharing this? Well sharing for the woman, who was like me, and was trying to find any and all info on the topic especially real life stories.

Adenomyosis is when the tissue that lines the uterus actually grows into the uterus. It continues to act as it would in the uterus (thickening, breaking down, etc). It's similar to endometriosis but not the same because it won't spread beyond the muscle tissue of the uterus. However, there are some women that have endometriosis AND adenomyosis. The symptoms vary from woman to woman. Some show no symptoms at all where as other have intense symptoms. The main symptom is pain. You can google to find all the other symptoms but for me pain is the main symptom.

I'm not in debilitating pain (although I do have times of intense pain). Actually when I mentioned it to my doctor I was pretty certain I had a cyst. I was pretty shocked when the ultrasound tech said there were no cysts. Since then I have looked backed over my life and fit the puzzle pieces together. Heavy periods, clots, etc. I was in pain for several days after my ultrasound. As my doctor put it I finally have an answer.

As hopeful as that may sound the down side is the only real cure for adenomyosis is a hysterectomy. There are other options you can try. My doctor suggested an IUD and I schedule to get it but felt uneasy about the whole thing. After talking a lot with my hubby I scheduled another appointment with my doctor to discuss what would be the best options. After a lot of discussing, praying, and mulling everything over I am scheduled for a hysterectomy. I go in tomorrow and evict my uterus. I hit several stages of grief at the first diagnosis. The thought of loosing my fertility hit me HARD. I have wanted more children for a long time, but the Lord has given me such peace about letting go of my fertility.

The thing is, yes I can try other things but they won't fix adenomyosis, they will only suppress it. My hubby and I felt like those would only be "band aid" fixes. I just want to do what I can to be the best mom possible for the children I DO have and not wear myself down in the hopes to possibly have more children. I did not make this decision lightly and definitely wouldn't be doing it if I didn't think this is what is best.

I will admit I do have some fears I'm dealing with. The only way to actually diagnose adenomyosis is through pathology after a hysterectomy. So what if I have this surgery and they don't find adeno? This is what hubby and I keep discussing but we still feel like with the problems I keep having this is the route we should go. I'm also really nervous about recovery so I'd appreciate prayers that its a smooth speedy recovery. They also be looking to see if I have endometriosis and burn off any adhesions that are found.

Yes I love to do things naturally when possible but there are times when I feel we need to go with a medical approach, and I feel that for me this is what is right at the moment.

I hope to get some posting done during my recovery process and hey it could end up being really fun, who knows what I'll write while medicated!


WOW Hits 2016

This review is sponsored by Family Christian but all thoughts and opinions are my own
I just love music. I love the way it speaks to my soul. The Lord chose not to gift me with any musical abilities but if you ever ride with me for very long in a car you will quickly learn that has never stopped me from belting out lyrics to songs I love.
I was so excited at the opportunity to review WOW Hits 2016! I have a few other WOW Hits so I couldn't wait to get my hands on this one. There are 30 wonderful songs (and some bonus songs whoop whoop). These CDs is bouncing back and forth between my car and my house. I don't like quiet and when I'm home alone and just cleaning I usually have music blaring. The wonderful worship songs but a bounce in my step as I find myself sing and worshipping all throughout my house. It also stirs my heart to pray and just seek the Lord.
I love all the songs so very much (and especially love listening to my kids sing a long). But if I had to choose I think my top 3 favorite that are included would be Greater by Mercy Me, He Knows My Name by Francesca Battistelli, and Broken Together by Casting Crowns.
Make sure to hop over to Family Christian and order your copy! And yes its ok for you to pretend we are jamming out together ;).